Psalms 73

Self Awareness

June 4th, 2023
The hardest realization has been the true condition of my heart.
The knowledge that somewhere along the road, I not only lost sight of who I was, but became someone I do not recognize.

I am struggling, under what feels like the weight of the world on my shoulders, but I know Jesus is the one doing the heavy lifting.
And yet I feel myself drowning in a sea of emotions I do not understand, unable to process everything I am feeling and uncertain as to what any of it means.
I feel distracted, I keep having to redirect my thoughts, to keep focused on Him and trust that whatever I may feel, He is in control of every detail of my life.

Somedays I sit on the dining room bench and just stare at my orchid, reminding myself, repeatedly, that it is a beautiful reminder that God knew I would be here, in this place, at this time, with these struggles and I would need a visual reminder that He is with me, He loves me and He hears my cries.

Thank You, Jesus.

God’s faithfulness is overwhelming. I am fully aware of how undeserving I am, because I have not always been faithful to God.

Growth is a painful but important process, as is healing, and as crazy as it sounds, they are a part of the process I’ve come to not just understand, but crave. I know that He makes everything better in the end, but knowing does not necessarily make the process any easier.

It’s not that I was unaware that I had spiritual skeletons that needed to be unearthed and properly dealt with, none of this makes any difference, unless I have true repentance and true commitment, it’s just that I was just not expecting to come face to face with these particular skeletons.

I now realize that my pride got in the way of seeing things clearly. I was quick to judge what I did not understand and for that, God has stripped me naked. I am humbled by the fallibility of my humanity. It’s not my weakness that shakes me, it’s where the weakness lies.
I acknowledge that knowing better does not always mean, doing better and that God can use even my weakest moments to bring about His purpose in my life.

I trust you to lead me, Jesus.
Save me from myself, Lord.

“Three different times I begged the Lord to take it away.
Each time he said, “My grace is all you need.
My power works best in weakness.”
So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses,
so that the power of Christ can work through me.
That’s why I take pleasure in my weaknesses,
and in the insults, hardships, persecutions,
and troubles that I suffer for Christ.
For when I am weak, then I am strong.”
2nd Corinthians 12: 8-10 NLT
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Restoration

June 4th, 2023
I could not have foreseen where the road would lead, and if you had told me, I would not have believed it.
It came when I least expected it, like a roller coaster on steroids. There have been so many ups and downs. So many moments of laughter and tears, and I am forever grateful for them all, I would not be here without them. Without him.

The last 5 years of our lives have been intense, to say the least. I could not put into words all we have been through, and how we have come out stronger on the other side. The hardships opened my eyes to who he was, underneath all of the imperfections and insecurities, they opened my eyes to who I was, too. To what I had become.

I have seen God bring my marriage back from a pile of dry bones to a living, breathing relationship, better than it has ever been before.
I have seen Him break us, mold us, and make us stronger, both as individuals and as a couple.
Our seeking a relationship with God separately, has brought us closer together.
I have watched Michael grow into a strong man of faith in Christ, who leads his family where God leads him, and he leads us with unshakeable faith, and a grace I cannot fathom, carrying an unbearable weight with a strength that can only be found in our Creator.

It took us the better part of 12 years to understand that we were not each other’s enemies, and to remember that God had a plan for us, a purpose. To see that we had allowed the enemy to distract us from what we knew from the start.
It took Michael stepping out in faith, seeking God for who He really is, to start this avalanche of spiritual warfare, as well as spiritual healing and growth, in this family.
Like falling dominoes, we all are falling in love with God.

My only regret is that it took us so long to get on the same page with Christ, to understand what was being offered to us, yes, but also, what was being asked of us.
There is nothing God can’t use for His purpose and glory. It’s not so much about the years we ‘wasted’ as it is about the fact that we are here, finally. Allowing God’s spirit to lead us forward in life. Trusting that His plan for us is greater than we could ever imagine, knowing that if this is as good as it ever gets, it is already better than it ever was, and that alone is more than I could have ever dream of.

God is faithful to those who seek Him earnestly, and I have seen Michael do that. His blessings are beyond what we deserve but not why we worship Him. We worship for who He is, and because of who He is, He showers us with His blessings and His love.

The last 5 yrs have been rough. There has been loss, heartbreak, and betrayal. There have been tears, pain and sorrow. We said things we can’t take back and did things, I can only hope we have learned from, because regret will not change any of it now, but it all taught me to see the beauty that hides in the pain. I’ve learned to be thankful for what I have, instead of dwelling in the past and what was not to be. I put aside my own expectations of who we were and embraced God’s identity for us.
I am thankful for the incredible man God blessed me with. I am thankful for my children and I am excited to see where God takes us next.

Thank you, Jesus, for your restoration. Only you can bring the dead to life. Thank you.

‘“Therefore, give the people of Israel
this message from the Sovereign Lord :
I am bringing you back,
but not because you deserve it.
I am doing it to protect my holy name,
on which you brought shame while
you were scattered among the nations.
I will show how holy my great name is—
the name
on which you brought shame among the nations.
And when I reveal my holiness through you
before their very eyes, says the Sovereign Lord ,
then the nations will know that I am the Lord .
For I will gather you up from all the nations and
bring you home again to your land. “Then I will
sprinkle clean water on you, and you will be clean.
Your filth will be washed away, and you will
no longer worship idols.
And I will give you a new heart, and I will put
a new spirit in you. I will take out your stony,
stubborn heart and give you a tender,
responsive heart. And I will put my Spirit in you
so that you will follow my decrees and
be careful to obey my regulations. ‘
Ezekiel 36:22-27 NLT
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While Chasing The Sunset

May 24th, 2023
Sunset over Springtown, Texas. 05.24.2023

How easily I forget, sometimes, that God is always faithful.
Even when I know, I don’t know.

It hurts to see that my heart is harder than I would like. It hurts to accept that those wounds left scars that run deeper than I initially realized.
The healing process is painful and uncomfortable, but He is incredibly worth it.

The words have become very real, in just 3 days, it’s almost hard to believe.

Almost.

The Creator of Heaven and Earth is digging the stones that hinder the soil in my heart. He is working here. He is not just tearing down walls, there is an entire fortress that needs to come undone. Everything I thought was real is just a lie.
It’ll be a long and painful road, a very slow process, which adds to the pain of the perpetually impatient.
He’s been telling me for 3 yrs now to slow down but I wasn’t really understanding it, because I was not really listening

But God understands me, so well. Every day He finds new ways to confirm His promise to me. New ways to encourage me.

Through the struggles, I kept reminding myself that there’s a beautiful, blooming orchid in the middle of my living room that stands as a testament to His tender love and mercies.

God hears me. God sees me. God is with me.

A truth that at times seems crazy but it’s not.

God is my victory over the pain and suffering of the world, and every thing that breaks me, makes me stronger in Him. Everything that I surrender to Him, every time that I trust that He truly is in control of all, and that where God guides, God provides.

Thank you, God for all that you do for me every day. For the little details you arrange in my day. For the people you place on my path, for my family, my house, for everything. I am in awe of Your attention to detail in my life. Thank you!

For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord.
“They are plans for good and not for disaster,
to give you a future and a hope.
In those days when you pray, I will listen.
If you look for me wholeheartedly, you will find me.
I will be found by you,” says the Lord.
“I will end your captivity and restore your fortunes.
I will gather you out of the nations where I sent you
and will bring you home again to your own land.”
Jeremiah 29:11-14 NLT

“Then I will sprinkle clean water on you,
and you will be clean. Your filth will be washed away,
and you will no longer worship idols.
And I will give you a new heart,
and I will put a new spirit in you.
I will take out your stony, stubborn heart
and give you a tender, responsive heart.”
‭‭Ezekiel‬ ‭36‬:‭25‬-‭26‬ ‭NLT‬‬
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Surrender

May 21st, 2023
Quote for day of 5.21.23 on the Glorify app

8:51 AM

I feel so many emotions I do not understand. I have so many questions. I could not begin to explain all that I feel and just how much those feelings contradict each other. There are times when I feel like I am drowning.

I have seen God bring my family closer together in the middle of the worst storm we have ever faced. God has allowed me to see glimpses of His hand at work and for that, I am eternally grateful. Knowing that He is in full control of all things lets me breathe.

I am both apprehensive and excited about the future. None of this makes any sense to me now but I know in my heart that I will continue to see God’s hand work and I will better know His heart in the days ahead.
There’s a thrill that runs through me at the reminders that no matter what this looks like now, God hears me, and has never left me. I hold on to the promise that as He has been with me in the past, despite my feelings then, He is with me now and will continue to be in the future.

There is also a lot of heartbreak over what I feel I’m losing in the process, and though I do not doubt for a single second that I will gain so much more in the end, because that is how God works, I am scared.

4:22 PM

I have found life to be a vicious cycle. It’s just never-ending ups and downs until the day we die. That’s a fact that won’t ever change.

Today, I feel like I’m drowning.

You can’t open the door to the enemy, not even a centimeter, because once he finds a way in, he does what he can to shake you and so we are here.

But God in his infinite wisdom places mirrors along the way, mirrors where you see bits of yourself, in a past life, so to speak.
You see a version of you who limited God, who doubted Him, or thought He needed your help, even after He told you to Be Still and Know.
You see a version of you that threw herself into busy work in a futile attempt to outrun the demons that chased her.

Oh, trust me the demons are still chasing. They will never stop chasing.
I’m just tired of running. I am powerless, and I am choosing to stand my ground and pray my way out of this instead.
I don’t have it in me to throw myself headfirst into earthly solutions to spiritual problems.
I am not in denial about the demons I face. I chose to pray this one out. In absolute surrender. His will. Not mine.

I understand what is at stake, but this is the road He put us on. I trust Him.

I would hate for anyone to walk away from here thinking I am fearless, I am not. But my strength comes from The Lord. He is the source of everything.
I close my eyes and I can see myself struggling in the water, barely able to breathe, and just when I think I am drowning, I see the hand of God come down and pull me up for air, rescuing me.
And so, no matter what it looks like today and how I feel about it, I continue to press into God and trust that He will make our way forward because he led us here.

God is our refuge and strength, always ready to help in times of trouble.
So we will not fear when earthquakes come and the mountains crumble into the sea.
Let the oceans roar and foam. Let the mountains tremble as the waters surge!
A river brings joy to the city of our God, the sacred home of the Most High.
God dwells in that city; it cannot be destroyed.
From the very break of day, God will protect it.
The nations are in chaos, and their kingdoms crumble!
God’s voice thunders, and the earth melts!
The Lord of Heaven’s Armies is here among us;
the God of Israel is our fortress.
Come, see the glorious works of the Lord:
See how he brings destruction upon the world.
He causes wars to end throughout the earth.
He breaks the bow and snaps the spear; he burns the shields with fire.
“Be still, and know that I am God! I will be honored by every nation.
I will be honored throughout the world.”
The Lord of Heaven’s Armies is here among us;
the God of Israel is our fortress.
(‭‭‭Psalms‬ ‭46‬‬:‭1‬-‭11‬ ‭NLT‬‬)
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An Unexpected Lesson

May 19th, 2023
5.19.23 PM

I still have much to learn, about patience and extending grace.

I still have to remind myself to keep my eyes on The Lord, almost continuously, because when I start to think I’m finally getting the hang of things, I stumble, which just adds to the frustration of the moment.
Nothing that happened today should’ve gotten the better of me, and I could give you a few excuses you’d consider valid, but I don’t because the truth is that I knew better, and yet I didn’t.
That’s life.

It did not take me long to recognize my mistake, redirect my energies and repent. But I feel irked that I let it get to me in the first place.
It’s a stressful time, for all of us, and just as I struggle with the weight on my shoulders, today I forgot that there are others that are struggling with theirs as well, and God calls me to love, serve and extend grace.
I have so much to be thankful for and, I am, but I lost my focus for a split second, I took my eyes off God and was quickly reminded why I don’t like to do that.

Now I wonder, how I will ever survive the next part of this journey?
No support team. No rays of sunshine. Just demanding adults who want life to be easier (who doesn’t?) without suffering (because who wants to suffer?) who are quick to impatience and can be selfish to the core.

But God.

I remind myself that He has never left me, and He never will.
Over and over God has confirmed that, slowly but surely, I am on His path.
I know that I would never choose this. This is not me, this is Him and I chose Him, I chose His Will over mine, and I know that where God guides, God provides.
Yes, even patience and grace.

Today was not a total loss. Granted, nothing went according to plan, but He allowed me to see a different perspective I had not considered until this very moment:

The growth.

The old me would’ve ranted and raved for days, calling others just as overwhelmed with life as me, every name imaginable, too focused on my anger and my troubles to care about anyone else. No remorse over those I might have snapped at.
On the contrary, I would’ve felt justified, but now I’m horrified.
These are my people, God gave them to me to love them, not get frustrated with them because He does not get frustrated with me.

I know God forgives me, and in due time, I’ll forgive myself too, but that does not answer the question, now, about how I will survive what is to come next, which is months away.
Unfortunately for me, that’s not today’s problem.
Fortunately for me, I have surrendered my life, and my problems to God.
I just need to keep focused on Him.

Thank You, God that no bad mood is wasted by You. You use all things for your Glory.

Thank You.

“Even when I walk through the darkest valley,
I will not be afraid,
for you are close beside me.
Your rod and your staff protect and comfort me.
You prepare a feast for me in the presence of my enemies.
You honor me by anointing my head with oil.
My cup overflows with blessings.
Surely your goodness and unfailing love will pursue
me all the days of my life, and I will live in the house of the Lord forever.”
Psalms 23: 4-6 NLT
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5.19.23

May 19th, 2023
I am overwhelmed with gratitude.

God is faithful, yes. But it’s more than that, for me, really.

These nights roaming the house, spending that time in His Presence, it has changed my perspective in a way I never thought possible.

So many things are changing, but I look forward to the days ahead because I know what God brings forth is greater than anything I could dream of.

I am excited for the days ahead when I will be better able to focus on Him and spend as much time as He will allow in His Presence, seeking His heart, and serving His people.

The closer I get to God, the more I cry out for others to have that encounter. The thought of people lost to Him, breaks me in a way I did not think possible, having never been one for emotions or sentimentality, but I have found He who fills my heart with Joy. I have found peace in the storm, and comfort in the things that once made me feel like drowning.
I feel whole in my Creator. How can I not pray for others to experience Him for themselves?

I look back at those dark days of anxiety and depression, of anger and resentment and I see every lonely moment that led here, to this exact place and moment in my life. And I could not be more thankful.

Thankful for Him. For His forgiveness and redemption.
Thankful for every moment that broke me and led me to see His hand at work in my life and the life of those around me.
Thankful for the people He put in my life and how He has used them for His glory.
I’m thankful for the kindness of others, who could not have known what was happening in my life and just how much I needed that laugh or that hug.
I’m thankful for the kids I have watched grow over the years, both mine and those around me. I pray for them. I cannot fathom any of those sweet faces being lost to the love of God.

I believe in His purpose.
I believe in His power.
I believe In His Glory.
I believe God wants us to encounter Him in that life-changing way that made me chase after Him above all else.
No one is ever too lost for Him, and for that too I am thankful because I don’t know where I would be, or even if I would still be, if not for Him.

I will rejoice in these sleepless nights of praise and worship, the opportunity to lose myself in Him while the world sleeps is something I never want to take for granted. I want to always rejoice in Him, no matter the personal cost, the hardships, the circumstances, or the heartbreak.

I just want Him.

“Give thanks to the Lord, for he is good! His faithful love endures forever. Give thanks to the Lord of Lords. His faithful love endures forever. Give thanks to him who alone does mighty miracles. His faithful love endures forever.”
‭‭Psalms‬ ‭136‬:‭1‬, ‭3‬-‭4‬ ‭NLT‬‬
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Mother’s Day

May 14th, 2023
They are the best of me.

If there is one thing that I have never doubted is that I am alive today, for them.
They are my purpose in life. My reason for breathing. I love them more than they will ever understand.

My mission in life is, and always has been, to make sure they are better equipped for this life than I ever was, not just in terms of adulting, but God.

My hope, for my children on Mother’s Day, and every day, is that they build their strong foundation in the Lord, much sooner than I did.
I pray they know God like I am just beginning to.
I pray they hear God’s voice and see His provisions clearer than I ever have, and I pray they remember.
I pray they never let the doubt drown their identity in Christ.

Parenting is not easy, it was never meant to be, and it is by the Grace of my Creator that I have not lost my sanity on this road.

It has been a hard and lonely road, but it is the road that led me here, and for that, I am eternally and overwhelmingly thankful.
People always said it would get easier as they got older, but I have found that the behavior of teenagers bares a striking resemblance to that of toddlers, with the exception that we expect them to know and understand better because they are older, and yet… because they are older, they do not.

BUT GOD.

Parenting has become easier to navigate since it became a team effort between 3. God, Michael, and I.

In that exact order.

The world is dark and cruel. It takes advantage of people. It teaches us to think of ourselves first and foremost. It puts pressures and expectations on us that we were never meant to carry.
How do you teach a child to navigate those deadly waters, while finding the good that lies hidden beneath the darkness, and still somehow managing to come up relatively unscathed?

I don’t know, but God does.

My job is to teach them to seek Him first so that all else can be added, by Him.
To teach them to rely on Him.
So I pray.

I pray for their secure future in Him, for He is our only true source of security.
I pray to see them serving The Lord in all they do, no matter where the road takes them.
I pray, and I believe. I believe this will all come to pass because I believe in His promise and I believe in His purpose.
I believe in Him.
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Onward, Christian Soldier

April 10th, 2023
Quote curtesy of the Glorify App

There are no words to describe the sea of emotions I feel right now.
There is excitement and anticipation, yes, but there is also resistance. Something deep within me wants to rear its ugly head and dig its heels in. Not necessarily fear, per se, more of a nervous energy, I guess.
I have to remind myself to slow down, and let Him lead. I must take the day as it comes. Its all I can do, take things as they come, one step at a time in prayer and supplication, with a grateful heart.

When God stretches His hand out, and invites you on a grand adventure, He fully intends to provide all of your needs throughout its duration, which is usually life. No detail is overlooked.

God has opened a door for our family and we have chosen to walk through it. We do not yet know where this will lead, but I have God’s promise that it is finished. I know that I will be better for the days ahead, I also know it won’t be easy.

The choices I make now will build my faith, and reliance on Jesus. It’ll strengthen my marriage. It will cover my children. It will expose where the machine, that is our family unit, needs maintenance and repairs.

God presented me with options, and I chose Him, I chose to trust Him.
That is how I plan to get through these days. Focused on Him. Trusting Him. Holding on to His promise that it is finished. The battle was won. He will provide all our needs for this stretch of the road and all I need to do is rest in Him.

I will hold myself accountable, and prioritize Him above all else, trusting that He is in control. My family is in His capable hands. He is molding us, in His image, for His purpose and His glory.

Even now, I do wish the road ahead was a different one, a simpler one, or that I could somehow skip the uncomfortable parts of what’s to come, but I have peace, deep in my heart I feel Him.

God is at work here, in me, in my family. I can let my feelings get in His way, or I can put trust into practice. I know this will strengthen my faith. It will strengthen and stabilize my foundation.

Jesus has already given me everything, I just need to keep my eyes on Him.

Dear Jesus:
You are opening doors. Removing my crutches. This stretch of the adventure will be just us.
I leave it all in your hands, Lord. Thank You for getting me through. Thank You for building our bonds. I can’t see all of the intricate details, I do not know as you do but I know and trust you. Thank you for the opportunity to draw closer to you. Thank you for bringing me back from the pile of dry bones to a living, beating heart that lives for you.

“Then he said to me, “Speak a prophetic message to the winds, son of man. Speak a prophetic message and say, ‘This is what the Sovereign Lord says: Come, O breath, from the four winds! Breathe into these dead bodies so they may live again.”
‭‭Ezekiel‬ ‭37‬:‭9‬ ‭NLT‬‬
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New Beginnings

March 21st, 2023
3.20.23 Sunrise

The sunrise felt like my own personal gift from God.

I didn’t even know I needed a beautiful work of art to cheer me up and set me on my way.

I could not have been more mesmerized by it, or more thankful.

It took everything I had to leave the house.
It’s not that I didn’t want to go back, I love my team, and I can’t imagine ever having a more understanding, loving, or supportive work family, anywhere.

It’s just that I feel it.

God’s pull.

The road He is leading me towards leads away from everything known and comfortable.
It is a hard and familiar road I’ve attempted before, without success, because I tried it on my own, without Jesus.

I do not share these posts to preach or judge.
I don’t mean to sound as though I have everything figured out, on the contrary, I don’t. I need Jesus to get through each day and what I have found in my relationship with Him, goes above and beyond anything the world has ever offered, or I could have ever imagined.
Writing helps me organize and process my thoughts, should my ramblings help anyone, then Praise The Lord!

I have learned that everything is better when I seek Him & His Kingdom first.
I felt His presence, love, and comfort in my darkest moments.
I know that, no matter what it looks like, what it feels like, or what it sounds like, Jesus is Lord and it is not done until He says it’s done.
It does not need to make sense to me, it does not need to make sense to anyone else, all I need is to know that I am following His lead.

I look forward to the road ahead with the confidence of a daughter who knows her Father will always lead and protect.

As I venture towards this new adventure that Jesus is inviting me on, I remind myself that none of this requires my comprehension. There are a million little details that need to be worked out, but where God guides, God provides.
I don’t need to know how, when, or even why. I simply need to trust.
It is arrogance to believe that we know all things or have all the answers or even an understanding of things when only God sees all, knows all, and is in control of all.
We see fractions of the picture, mere pixels by comparison.

The possibilities are endless when you walk with the God of all creation.
The unknown is not so scary when you face it with Jesus by the hand.

Thank you, Jesus. For every day. For every breath. For every lesson. For every gift. For every adventure.
Thank you, Lord, that you have chosen me to walk this road with You.
Thank you for helping me realize that there is no light anywhere near the tunnel but You. You are the light. You are the love. You are the best friend I could have ever hoped for. You gift me more than I could ever earn or deserve.
I am thankful for and overwhelmed by your grace.

Thank you.

“I look up to the mountains—
does my help come from there?
My help comes from the Lord,
who made heaven and earth!
He will not let you stumble;
the one who watches over you will not slumber.
Indeed, he who watches over Israel
never slumbers or sleeps.
The Lord himself watches over you!
The Lord stands beside you as your protective shade.
The sun will not harm you by day,
nor the moon at night.
The Lord keeps you from all harm
and watches over your life.
The Lord keeps watch over you as you come and go,
both now and forever.”
Psalms 121: 1-8 NLT
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Through The Struggles

February 24th, 2023
02.24.23

So often, we get so bogged down with life, we forget what truly matters. Busyness runs away with us and we don’t enjoy as much time together as we should. It’s a shame really, the days feel long but the years are so incredibly short.

It’s pretty amazing though, what God can use for His glory. What He can use to reach you and teach you, whether it’s a baby blanket or a random outing with the whole family. If you are willing to open your heart to Him, He reveals bits and pieces to you, of things past, yes, but also things to come.

For years, I have been praying for His will in our lives. I’ve been praying for Him to help me, help us really, become the people He intended us to be. I want my family to be His family, working for His good purpose and His kingdom and glory. I understand that I don’t get to decide what that looks like, and yet, I find myself resistant to change, and even more so to discomfort. I want God’s plan for me, I do. I just don’t want to step out of that comfort zone.

Tonight, I was reminded that He can use anything and everything to turn a person, or situation, around. He builds bridges, He mends fences and makes all things new. God is taking a very challenging time in our lives and using it in ways that I could not have foreseen, but then He is God. I need Him to help me with all things, myself includes, because there is SO much we can’t foresee, and most often my solution to a particular problem isn’t the best one, because it comes from logic or fear not from the heart. Yes, my current set of circumstances sucks but the new set of opportunities that have arisen from the ashes has been nothing short of incredible.

I am not where I would like to be, but I know that God will get us all there as long as we continue to prioritize Him above all else. Little by little, I see the pieces of a much bigger puzzle come together and I would be lying if I told you that I am always grateful, always joyful, never complain and do all as the Bible tells us because in truth I am stubborn, I am resistant to change and quick to lose my patience, my hope and my faith… I hyper focus on the dark tunnel and forget that God is my light at the end, and even though I don’t see Him and I don’t always feel Him, He finds new ways to remind me that He is always there, working behind the scenes, clearing the path ahead, fixing what is broken, building things from the ground up. He carves a new path for us and brings us all closer together, and reminds us, me, of what really matters.

Yes, I would like things to be different but God has me here now and here I shall remain until it’s time for whatever comes next. Until then I will thank Him for His patience, His love, healing, redemption and forgiveness. I will thank Him for continuously picking me up, dusting me off and encouraging me on. I dont know how He does it, because I can’t imagine that level of love or patience, but I am incredibly thankful for all He is building here, for our time together and even for how He chooses to bring us together. His methods make no sense to me more often than not, but we are always better for it in the end, and for that I am grateful, even though so often o chose to make things harder on myself by taking my eyes off of Him.

“Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus. And now, dear brothers and sisters, one final thing. Fix your thoughts on what is true, and honorable, and right, and pure, and lovely, and admirable. Think about things that are excellent and worthy of praise. Keep putting into practice all you learned and received from me—everything you heard from me and saw me doing. Then the God of peace will be with you.”
‭‭Philippians‬ ‭4‬:‭6‬-‭9‬ ‭NLT‬‬
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