Mother’s Day

They are the best of me.

If there is one thing that I have never doubted is that I am alive today, for them.
They are my purpose in life. My reason for breathing. I love them more than they will ever understand.

My mission in life is, and always has been, to make sure they are better equipped for this life than I ever was, not just in terms of adulting, but God.

My hope, for my children on Mother’s Day, and every day, is that they build their strong foundation in the Lord, much sooner than I did.
I pray they know God like I am just beginning to.
I pray they hear God’s voice and see His provisions clearer than I ever have, and I pray they remember.
I pray they never let the doubt drown their identity in Christ.

Parenting is not easy, it was never meant to be, and it is by the Grace of my Creator that I have not lost my sanity on this road.

It has been a hard and lonely road, but it is the road that led me here, and for that, I am eternally and overwhelmingly thankful.
People always said it would get easier as they got older, but I have found that the behavior of teenagers bares a striking resemblance to that of toddlers, with the exception that we expect them to know and understand better because they are older, and yet… because they are older, they do not.

BUT GOD.

Parenting has become easier to navigate since it became a team effort between 3. God, Michael, and I.

In that exact order.

The world is dark and cruel. It takes advantage of people. It teaches us to think of ourselves first and foremost. It puts pressures and expectations on us that we were never meant to carry.
How do you teach a child to navigate those deadly waters, while finding the good that lies hidden beneath the darkness, and still somehow managing to come up relatively unscathed?

I don’t know, but God does.

My job is to teach them to seek Him first so that all else can be added, by Him.
To teach them to rely on Him.
So I pray.

I pray for their secure future in Him, for He is our only true source of security.
I pray to see them serving The Lord in all they do, no matter where the road takes them.
I pray, and I believe. I believe this will all come to pass because I believe in His promise and I believe in His purpose.
I believe in Him.