Thank You for everything, Lord.
The good, the bad, the undefined as of yet, I am thankful for it all.
For so long, Lord, I lived my life in fear, off all the wrong things, always trying to achieve, to strive, always looking to the world for answers & satisfaction that it simply has never possessed.
As I look back at all of the personal, financial and familial setbacks, just of the last year alone, I find that not only were You always there, but You somehow managed to turn all of my choices, both the good and the bad, into something I never did see coming:
A new creation.
In You. For You. I am new.
Everything I once believed to be impossible, You Jesus, have made possible.
The things that once kept me up at night, the things I feared the most, turned out to be nothing to fear at all, because of You.
You, my God, only You could have done all I have seen. There is no other explanation, for how we got here and how we have all that we have after all that we “lost” which, in truth, feels like we lost nothing at all.
As I sit here today, I find that the abundant life I truly want is the one that is abundant in You, My God. I want to live to love you well because I now understand that this life is basic training, there are many battles coming but the only true victory we have is the one You give us.
I thank You Jesus, for the idols that you have broken me off of.
I thank you for teaching me to trust You and Your timing, especially when nothing makes sense and the enemy is pushing doubt, because now I understand that all he can do is get me to rob myself of You and I am terrified of ever spending a day away from you ever again. Not now. Not after all You and I have been through.
I have seen Your abundant blessings and it saddens me to remember when Your abundant love, grace and provisions did not look as such to me. The world had taught me wrong, and slowly You are undoing and re-teaching, Your truths.
Thank You for teaching me. Thank You for saving me from myself. You have rescued me Lord, in ways I did not know I needed rescuing.
You have opened my heart, my mind, my soul, my eyes and ears to You.
I am fully lost in You, but by Your grace, not from You.
‘Then I realized that my heart was bitter, and I was all torn up inside.
I was so foolish and ignorant— I must have seemed like a senseless animal to you.
Yet I still belong to you; you hold my right hand.
You guide me with your counsel, leading me to a glorious destiny.
Whom have I in heaven but you?
I desire you more than anything on earth. ‘
Psalms 73:21-25
‘All of this is for your benefit. And as God’s grace reaches more
and more people, there will be great thanksgiving,
and God will receive more and more glory.
So we live in the face of death, but this has resulted
in eternal life for you.
We know that God,
who raised the Lord Jesus, will also raise us
with Jesus and present us to himself together with you.
That is why we never give up.
Though our bodies are dying,
our spirits are being renewed every day. ‘
2 Corinthians 4:12,14-16
Psalms 73 