How easily I forget, sometimes, that God is always faithful.
Even when I know, I don’t know.
It hurts to see that my heart is harder than I would like. It hurts to accept that those wounds left scars that run deeper than I initially realized.
The healing process is painful and uncomfortable, but He is incredibly worth it.
The words have become very real, in just 3 days, it’s almost hard to believe.
Almost.
The Creator of Heaven and Earth is digging the stones that hinder the soil in my heart. He is working here. He is not just tearing down walls, there is an entire fortress that needs to come undone. Everything I thought was real is just a lie.
It’ll be a long and painful road, a very slow process, which adds to the pain of the perpetually impatient.
He’s been telling me for 3 yrs now to slow down but I wasn’t really understanding it, because I was not really listening
But God understands me, so well. Every day He finds new ways to confirm His promise to me. New ways to encourage me.
Through the struggles, I kept reminding myself that there’s a beautiful, blooming orchid in the middle of my living room that stands as a testament to His tender love and mercies.
God hears me. God sees me. God is with me.
A truth that at times seems crazy but it’s not.
God is my victory over the pain and suffering of the world, and every thing that breaks me, makes me stronger in Him. Everything that I surrender to Him, every time that I trust that He truly is in control of all, and that where God guides, God provides.
Thank you, God for all that you do for me every day. For the little details you arrange in my day. For the people you place on my path, for my family, my house, for everything. I am in awe of Your attention to detail in my life. Thank you!
For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord.
“They are plans for good and not for disaster,
to give you a future and a hope.
In those days when you pray, I will listen.
If you look for me wholeheartedly, you will find me.
I will be found by you,” says the Lord.
“I will end your captivity and restore your fortunes.
I will gather you out of the nations where I sent you
and will bring you home again to your own land.”
Jeremiah 29:11-14 NLT
“Then I will sprinkle clean water on you,
and you will be clean. Your filth will be washed away,
and you will no longer worship idols.
And I will give you a new heart,
and I will put a new spirit in you.
I will take out your stony, stubborn heart
and give you a tender, responsive heart.”
Ezekiel 36:25-26 NLT
Psalms 73 