I am overwhelmed with gratitude.
God is faithful, yes. But it’s more than that, for me, really.
These nights roaming the house, spending that time in His Presence, it has changed my perspective in a way I never thought possible.
So many things are changing, but I look forward to the days ahead because I know what God brings forth is greater than anything I could dream of.
I am excited for the days ahead when I will be better able to focus on Him and spend as much time as He will allow in His Presence, seeking His heart, and serving His people.
The closer I get to God, the more I cry out for others to have that encounter. The thought of people lost to Him, breaks me in a way I did not think possible, having never been one for emotions or sentimentality, but I have found He who fills my heart with Joy. I have found peace in the storm, and comfort in the things that once made me feel like drowning.
I feel whole in my Creator. How can I not pray for others to experience Him for themselves?
I look back at those dark days of anxiety and depression, of anger and resentment and I see every lonely moment that led here, to this exact place and moment in my life. And I could not be more thankful.
Thankful for Him. For His forgiveness and redemption.
Thankful for every moment that broke me and led me to see His hand at work in my life and the life of those around me.
Thankful for the people He put in my life and how He has used them for His glory.
I’m thankful for the kindness of others, who could not have known what was happening in my life and just how much I needed that laugh or that hug.
I’m thankful for the kids I have watched grow over the years, both mine and those around me. I pray for them. I cannot fathom any of those sweet faces being lost to the love of God.
I believe in His purpose.
I believe in His power.
I believe In His Glory.
I believe God wants us to encounter Him in that life-changing way that made me chase after Him above all else.
No one is ever too lost for Him, and for that too I am thankful because I don’t know where I would be, or even if I would still be, if not for Him.
I will rejoice in these sleepless nights of praise and worship, the opportunity to lose myself in Him while the world sleeps is something I never want to take for granted. I want to always rejoice in Him, no matter the personal cost, the hardships, the circumstances, or the heartbreak.
I just want Him.
“Give thanks to the Lord, for he is good! His faithful love endures forever. Give thanks to the Lord of Lords. His faithful love endures forever. Give thanks to him who alone does mighty miracles. His faithful love endures forever.”
Psalms 136:1, 3-4 NLT
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