There are no words to describe the sea of emotions I feel right now.
There is excitement and anticipation, yes, but there is also resistance. Something deep within me wants to rear its ugly head and dig its heels in. Not necessarily fear, per se, more of a nervous energy, I guess.
I have to remind myself to slow down, and let Him lead. I must take the day as it comes. Its all I can do, take things as they come, one step at a time in prayer and supplication, with a grateful heart.
When God stretches His hand out, and invites you on a grand adventure, He fully intends to provide all of your needs throughout its duration, which is usually life. No detail is overlooked.
God has opened a door for our family and we have chosen to walk through it. We do not yet know where this will lead, but I have God’s promise that it is finished. I know that I will be better for the days ahead, I also know it won’t be easy.
The choices I make now will build my faith, and reliance on Jesus. It’ll strengthen my marriage. It will cover my children. It will expose where the machine, that is our family unit, needs maintenance and repairs.
God presented me with options, and I chose Him, I chose to trust Him.
That is how I plan to get through these days. Focused on Him. Trusting Him. Holding on to His promise that it is finished. The battle was won. He will provide all our needs for this stretch of the road and all I need to do is rest in Him.
I will hold myself accountable, and prioritize Him above all else, trusting that He is in control. My family is in His capable hands. He is molding us, in His image, for His purpose and His glory.
Even now, I do wish the road ahead was a different one, a simpler one, or that I could somehow skip the uncomfortable parts of what’s to come, but I have peace, deep in my heart I feel Him.
God is at work here, in me, in my family. I can let my feelings get in His way, or I can put trust into practice. I know this will strengthen my faith. It will strengthen and stabilize my foundation.
Jesus has already given me everything, I just need to keep my eyes on Him.
Dear Jesus:
You are opening doors. Removing my crutches. This stretch of the adventure will be just us.
I leave it all in your hands, Lord. Thank You for getting me through. Thank You for building our bonds. I can’t see all of the intricate details, I do not know as you do but I know and trust you. Thank you for the opportunity to draw closer to you. Thank you for bringing me back from the pile of dry bones to a living, beating heart that lives for you.
“Then he said to me, “Speak a prophetic message to the winds, son of man. Speak a prophetic message and say, ‘This is what the Sovereign Lord says: Come, O breath, from the four winds! Breathe into these dead bodies so they may live again.”
Ezekiel 37:9 NLT
Psalms 73 