So often, we get so bogged down with life, we forget what truly matters. Busyness runs away with us and we don’t enjoy as much time together as we should. It’s a shame really, the days feel long but the years are so incredibly short.
It’s pretty amazing though, what God can use for His glory. What He can use to reach you and teach you, whether it’s a baby blanket or a random outing with the whole family. If you are willing to open your heart to Him, He reveals bits and pieces to you, of things past, yes, but also things to come.
For years, I have been praying for His will in our lives. I’ve been praying for Him to help me, help us really, become the people He intended us to be. I want my family to be His family, working for His good purpose and His kingdom and glory. I understand that I don’t get to decide what that looks like, and yet, I find myself resistant to change, and even more so to discomfort. I want God’s plan for me, I do. I just don’t want to step out of that comfort zone.
Tonight, I was reminded that He can use anything and everything to turn a person, or situation, around. He builds bridges, He mends fences and makes all things new. God is taking a very challenging time in our lives and using it in ways that I could not have foreseen, but then He is God. I need Him to help me with all things, myself includes, because there is SO much we can’t foresee, and most often my solution to a particular problem isn’t the best one, because it comes from logic or fear not from the heart. Yes, my current set of circumstances sucks but the new set of opportunities that have arisen from the ashes has been nothing short of incredible.
I am not where I would like to be, but I know that God will get us all there as long as we continue to prioritize Him above all else. Little by little, I see the pieces of a much bigger puzzle come together and I would be lying if I told you that I am always grateful, always joyful, never complain and do all as the Bible tells us because in truth I am stubborn, I am resistant to change and quick to lose my patience, my hope and my faith… I hyper focus on the dark tunnel and forget that God is my light at the end, and even though I don’t see Him and I don’t always feel Him, He finds new ways to remind me that He is always there, working behind the scenes, clearing the path ahead, fixing what is broken, building things from the ground up. He carves a new path for us and brings us all closer together, and reminds us, me, of what really matters.
Yes, I would like things to be different but God has me here now and here I shall remain until it’s time for whatever comes next. Until then I will thank Him for His patience, His love, healing, redemption and forgiveness. I will thank Him for continuously picking me up, dusting me off and encouraging me on. I dont know how He does it, because I can’t imagine that level of love or patience, but I am incredibly thankful for all He is building here, for our time together and even for how He chooses to bring us together. His methods make no sense to me more often than not, but we are always better for it in the end, and for that I am grateful, even though so often o chose to make things harder on myself by taking my eyes off of Him.
“Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus. And now, dear brothers and sisters, one final thing. Fix your thoughts on what is true, and honorable, and right, and pure, and lovely, and admirable. Think about things that are excellent and worthy of praise. Keep putting into practice all you learned and received from me—everything you heard from me and saw me doing. Then the God of peace will be with you.”
Philippians 4:6-9 NLT
Psalms 73 